I have been newly called to be a "meetings co-ordinator" but there seems to be a lot of confusion and misunderstanding as to what a meetings co-ordinator actually does. From reading, re-reading and praying about Sister Beck's talk I keep getting the same answer that my role is to help the RSPresident carry out the planning and co-ordinating of any additional meetings (other than the Sunday meetings) which she and Bishop have counselled together about and feel are required by the sisters in our ward.
Does anyone else see it differently?
I've had one sister tell me that I'm just a 'homemaking leader' with a different name and we should just carry on doing what she did before, another tell me that I'm the activities board member and should be planning Christmas parties etc, another tell me that I am supposed to liase between Primary, Young Women and Relief Society, and the RS President tell me that it is my responsibility to pray for revelation for what meetings are necessary. (I thought that was supposed to have been done by the RSP and Bishop before I even got involved) The more I read the talk and pray about it the more confused I become because I am still getting the same answer that I am supposed to be the one who helps out on the practical side of organising things once the plans and decisions have been made and yet my Bishop tells me that I do not have enough faith if I'm not getting the right answers.
I have tried to 'get the right answers' and now feel Heavenly Father is losing patience with me saying "How many times do I need to keep telling you the same thing before you will listen to me and stop asking?" In particular the story of Joseph Smith, Martin Harris and the lost manuscript comes to mind. Joseph got his answer from Heavely Father but kept pestering until he got a different one, then it proved to be wrong.
I'm at my wits end over this and just feel like walking away from the church altogether.
Edited by WillowTheWhisp, 14 December 2009 - 02:22 AM.