How can I find my purpose in life? The Lord's will for my own life?
Posted 03 January 2013 - 11:13 AM
I was writing my story but it was so long that I'll sum it up:
Because of my dad's work in the Church we've had to move a lot through the country (14 times in total) and I'm very bad adapting to changes. I feel like I'm always losing the few things I achieve in each change. I lose the friends I barely can make, experiences, goals, possesions, stability. I hate to start over and over again and feel like I can't have a stable life.
But this last change has been the most difficult for me. I finally loved the place where we were!! I was so happy because we finally lived in my favorite state of the country, I even met my first boyfriend, and I finally found a place and a life where I wanted to stay.
But we had to move again only a few months later!!! I lost my friends, my favorite place, and eventually, my boyfriend. I'm tired of so many changes! I hate to lose everything and start over and over again. I don't really like this place, I tried but I don't fit in. Now that I've lost my favorite everything I don't know what I want. We're moving again in a year and a half, I don't know where and for how long.
I want to make my own life in only one place once and for all But I haven't found an eternal companion I can stay with, and believe me, I've moved to enough places, enough times, just to realize how hard it is to find a guy I can fall in love with, or at least find attractive! (Am I too picky?) and a place where I can live happily ever after.
My exboyfriend wasn't the right person anyway but the only one who has loved me and I liked back, so far. (Not enough for eternal marriage though, but it hurts anyway) Now I'm not only super lonely here, but heartbroken. In the USA I guess it would make sense for me to go to BYU, live on my own, and eventually find an eternal companion. But I'm Mexican, I can't afford BYU, I really want to find a right person for me but since I don't know where I could find him (definitely not here) I don't know if I can expect some special guidance from Heavenly Father to meet him, or to choose a random place, try to live on my own there and try my luck; or to stay with my family and see what happens while I sing "I'll go where you want me to go" I just don't know what the Lord's will is for me, and what I should do to find my own purpose in life, not my parent's. I don't know where to go, what to do, I don't even know what I want now. The life I really liked is in the past and it's over. How can I find my own purpose and my own life? Any suggestions????? Any advice??? thank you
P.S. I'm sorry if it looks like I'm wanting you guys to solve my life and give me a perfect solution, or tell me where my future husband is (if he even exists! haha) or plan my life lol, no, but maybe there's a little advice you think that would help me to ,at least, feel better. I guess some of the people here faced this same kind of feelings at some point in their lives.
And sorry for my English, orginally I speak Spanish
Posted 03 January 2013 - 12:24 PM
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