I'm not trying to dodge, I apologize if it came off that way. No one was accusing BY of murder, just that he advocated for blood atonement, which he did. I don't quite understand your second paragraph. I have a hard time discussing things in church history that bother me. I feel like I can't discuss it with anyone because I instantly get called anti or apostate. It happens here on the board and in real life. It would be nice to share my opinion without the feeling of being attacked. I'm happy to hear other people's views. I don't want to destroy the church. I love the Gospel and the church. I can't accept the mainstream way of believing the Gospel, but I still think there's a place for me.