I am at the beginning stages with this... I, unlike many spouses and significant others in this situation, had the knowledge of my husband's addiction from when we were dating. My husband treats me like an absolute queen - he is infinitely kind, understanding, loving, and romantic. We dated for under a year and just got married in December.
He has struggled with pornography since he was very young, and has always detested it and sought help - his parents know about it, and he has attended different ARP programs over the years to work on his sobriety. When we started dating seriously, I joined the ARP support group for the wives and could not relate to the abusive side of the addiction - my husband has never been neglectful, or anything close to unkind.
However, he relapsed the last 2 weeks, and just told me this past weekend. Due to the fact that I know all about his struggles, and was fine in the past when he struggled, I surprised myself with the huge emotional reaction I had. I was completely distraught. I was most distraught about the fact he struggled for 2 weeks before telling me. He told me right after he had a meeting with the Bishop - and he scheduled a meeting to see a therapist for the first time tomorrow.
I realize that compared to so many other couples where the husband is resistant to help or change or admitting he has a problem, my husband is definitely doing a good job. What I am finding is that the more I try to educate myself on the addiction, the more scared I get - church talks, support websites... they are really terrifying me.
They talk about the cup that is clean on the outside but rotten on the inside... and it makes me wonder if I should be very worried. I am concerned for my husband's wellbeing and the spiritual impact it will have on him and on our relationship, but all the things on the web and even some things on this forum makes me wonder if I should be more scared. That isn't good - as I am already more uncomfortable than i was - but with my husband treating me so well, and our relationship being so good, should I really read into it more than that?