banaberry

Thank you so much for your responses! I really appreciate it. I am seeing the psychiatrist tomorrow for the first time and even though I am very nervous I know the worst that can happen is I panic. Judo, hearing your story was very inspirational. How long did it take you to overcome your disorder? Right now I am working on a degree and I take care of my child full time.I have to sign her up for kindergarten...little things like this make me nervous. Going outside is an ordeal. I know I will need a lot of therapy and the biggest step is the one I am taking tomorrow. Right now I do not own any scriptures. Should i contact the missionaries for the free ones they give out? Who should I contact about going back to church? Thank you

Hi, I found this site today and decided to join. I am hoping to get some help and guidance on going back to Church. I was baptized in 2002 and a very active member with a strong testimony for 5 years. I went to BYU and loved it. After I married a non member things fell apart. He was very unsupportive and the relationship was abusive. I lost touch with all my friends and I felt almost ashamed to go back to church even though I have always wanted to. I wish I could say I could just get up and go next Sunday but I can't. Even though my husband is gone I am now suffering from panic disorder in the beginning stages. Going outside is scary for me...I can't stay home by myself, I can't work...ever since I started suffering from this I found out two of my cousins and my uncle have also battled with this. I am on this website to try and find others who may be suffering from PD and who have overcome it. I am also trying to become involved in the LDS community and hopefully I can go back to church. I'm glad I found this site, it seems very helpful. :)

I was baptized into the Church in 2002. Currently I am inactive. I was active up until I was 21, when I married a non member. Recently my husband left my daughter and I. When I first got married I thought he would support my religion. I can't drive and he always came up with excuses to not bring me to church...Eventually I stopped going all together. Anyway he left me in December '10. He does not visit his child. I haven't worked up the nerve to get a divorce...the relationship was semi abusive. I am glad he is gone...after he left my father suffered a stroke. He has been in rehab for two months. The stress has taken a toll on me. I am now suffering from panic disorder. I rarely leave the house. I am scared to take my Paxil. I have to go to the psychiatrist in two days and I am so scared. I have a 4 yr old to take care of. I feel completely hopeless. Depression has hindered my social life. I have wanted to go back to church for a long time but I haven't. Right now I think about it everyday. However I can't see myself going to church because of my panic attacks. I want to go and I want to take my child. I am wondering if there is some way I can still be involved in church while I get over this scary disorder. I need support and guidance about how to get involved in church again, which is why I joined this forum. To introduce myself, I was baptized in 2002 in NYC. I went to school at BYU for 2 yrs then moved back to NYU and graduated at a SUNY. I have a beautiful 4 yr old daughter. I am working on my masters degree online. I am hoping and praying everyday for this disorder to disappear... Thank you.