Hello converts!
Just reaching out in hoping anyone else felt the way I do.
I feel HORRIBLE for my life before LDS, it's like I can't shake the guilt of everything I have done (whilst not knowing what I was doing was so wrong). It just makes me want to cry, from the big things like sex before marriage to the small things such as the fact I'm sitting here DYING for a cup of coffee and the realisation as to why LDS do not drink it. IT REALLY IS ADDICTIVE. I'm so disgusted in myself that I was unaware of this and that it was this bad. Today was the day I decided to only drink water (I know LDS drink other things haha but I want to be healthy and everything has SUGAR! - just a personal choice)
I'm trying to not give in & I'm getting just so discouraged by it all.
It's such a life changing thing to join LDS and so hard to give up everything you're so used to doing and being oblivious to it all! If you were brought up LDS your whole life and reading this - please know how lucky and blessed you are to have always known the true church of jesus christ.
anyway this is just a bit of a rant.
I'm basically just feeling discouraged like it's too hard. I don't want to be judged my first day at church, I regret so much in my life now, I even feel slightly as though I'm not good enough to be LDS. I question if I can do this, but I know I have to because it's what i believe to be true. isn't it funny how my family and friends are so misinformed about who mormons are and what they believe. I've been judged by them most! I have been ridiculed for my choice and yet I'm more worried about being looked down on by other church members.
Did any other converts go through trials joining the church? What were they & how did you over come them? If you were made fun of - how did you deal with it? (HAHA WOULD APPRECIATE ANY ADVICE MY FELLOW "CULT" MEMBERS) MUAHAHA!! hahaha!