Timid

Hello, I started going back to church about 2 years ago. My scripture study is nearly non-existent. I try to start it up every once in awhile but I run out of steam a week into it each time. Recently I've been trying to find an audio scripture commentary or religion class or something that I can play in the background while I work. I work from home and usually have music/tv/movies playing in the background while I work so I figured maybe I could get some scripture study. So far I haven't had any luck finding resources other than just the scriptures on lds.org. Does anyone know of any good resources? Thanks!

Yes i have similar scenarios outside of church. I'm not very social. I appreciate the advice, I grew up being taught not to turn down a calling but I guess that's better than not going to church at all.

I grew up in the church, served a mission (huge struggle), got married in the temple. In my adult life I've really struggled with activity. I'm afraid of callings, teaching specifically. I was called in Young Men's which was a real struggle for me even though I only had 3 boys in my class. I agreed to the calling and tried to show faith that I'd make it through. I would often spend 12+ hours on my lessons and only be able to fill 15-20 minutes of class time (and that was when we had a real manual). Fortunately I had to move for work and was released from the calling before the curriculum changed to the free-for-all it is now. I got called into Sunday School Presidency and it was too much to have to worry about teaching any class where the teacher didn't show up. I stopped going to church and it's been almost a year now. I know it bothers my wife and daughter that I don't go. I'm just not sure there's a place for me in the church without a calling (they all seem to involve teaching). Also, because of work/geography, I haven't been to the temple in 10 years, I'm afraid to go because I don't remember much. Anyone out there like me? How have you made it as an active member?