I had this same question once. Anyone who has struggled with addiction has this question. I've been reading Steven A. Cramer's book "Putting on the Armor of God" which is an AMAZING book. Allow me to quote a paragraph from him. "It is true that God has very strict standards, and that he “cannot look upon sin with the least degree of allowance” (D&C 1:31). But it is also true that he has infinite allowance, infinite tolerance, compassion, and mercy, infinite patience and forgiveness, for every repentant person, no matter how imperfect they remain. How the Savior longs to assure us that we are not condemned simply because we have unconquered weaknesses. “Some of you are guilty before me,” He said, “but I will be merciful unto your weaknesses” (D&C 38:14). He also said, “Verily I say unto you, notwithstanding their sins, my bowels are filled with compassion towards them. I will not utterly cast them off; and in the day of wrath I will remember mercy.” (D&C 101:9)" It matters less where we currently are so much as it matters what direction we are facing.